BE

I remember ending school and thinking about what the next step was, what was I to do, what job was I to do, what should I be studying, what does God want me to do with my life? So many questions and all I thought were totally relevant. I had 'questionable' pathway planners telling me uni was the only way to go. I was so confused and was so stressed out about it *smile*. So I of course toddled off to uni to do a course which yes I did love but I knew all along that it wasn't my dream or what I would end up doing with my life.

What I am trying to get at is that it was all about the do,  what I was to do with my life. And that is a totally fine thing to be asking, but what about the be? 

I watched this movie the other day, my mum suggested it, informing me that is was a christian movie, now your reaction is probably similar to mine "eek, tacky christian movie" but I went ahead and watched it and it was actually very well made, not too cheesy and had a good point.  My favourite part of it was when the lead guy is talking to his old teacher and his teacher asks him how he's going, if he is still writing how life's going etc and the guys like well I'm just working at this cafe, God obviously doesn't have anything important for me to do, and his teacher says this to him "the most important question to ask yourself is, who is God asking me to be?" Interesting thought huh!

Now this wasn't a new revelation to me, this whole year since quitting uni and trying to figure out what I am meant to do with my life, I have felt the God whisper saying it doesn't actually matter what you do with your life, things to do will come and go, they are all temporary assignments intended to grow you and use the person God is creating you to be.

They are seasonal things, simply assignments. The thing that is everlasting and the thing that I can constantly work on is becoming and being the person God has called me to be, so that when the time comes that God has an assignment for me, I am able to walk in it with ease, my character, my personality, my opinions and my heart are usable and are ready for the task ahead. 

So I am still asking the question of what am I meant to do with my life, but I've realised that can't be number one questions its about asking who does God want me to be in the season, because the do will come and go but the be is forever and that is what will matter in the end.